Me and my huge Pride.

I can´t believe what an arrogant prick I can sometimes become. What truly is amazing is that I´m totally convinced that I´m almost humble most of the time. How can a humble person be a big mouthed idiot? Yes, how my tongue speaks up, and shouts about things I half understand. What righteousness is in me to fight my supposed righteousness about everything. The only thing I´m right about is that God is good and without him I am a condemned sinner. Well of course I believe to be a born again believer, a " follower of Christ", but the term is far beyond my daily practice. Would a follower of Christ, believe to be so much better than anyone else to the point of not caring about anyone else´s path but mine. Then again, Pride comes up, as a follower of Christ, what makes me qualified to enlighten anyone´s path, is mine enlightened enough?

I´m in a flight and I hear the Captain say: Thank you for your attention, we are at 20,500 feet and the tail section just blasted. I am so happy I have the parachute on, but I see the guy next to me and I ask him, didn´t you hear the Captain? Put the Parachute on. But the guy is enjoying the pleasure of the bumpy ride like he was on six flags or something. And I tell him, man we will have to jump! But what if the guy wants to die? I´m not talking bout Hell fire preaching, that will only get him angry and scared.
Yet he doesn´t understand his dangerous condition, he just doesn´t get it. If he knew, he would put the parachute on and never take it off.

All I know is that I´m gratefull I have understood what a stupid sinner I am. And that´s when my arms cling in a hug to the only one who can give me Love as I need it. I have broken every single law on the Ten Commandments, every single one of them. Without the blood of the Lamb, I´m guilty, and my heart is dirty with envy, lies, pride, greed, selfishness. He that comes to the saviour, knowing he must face him on the day of judgment, should know better than coming with a dirty heart.

But... what if He washes it clean?

Would you be too proud to let him?