Hanging on a string

Today is my birthday.
Don't expect fireworks no more.

34 years
Has it been that long?
Feel no years have gone

Achievements?
Not as much
Improvements?
Yes,
In my own little world.

Sad? a little
Fully happy. Would have to lie.
Peaceful. Too peaceful.
Afraid. Very.


Am I a black sheep?
Wish I'm not
Am I a white sheep?
of course not

Goals. Write them backwards
Loss. Click them forward
Still Life. Completely
Motion. Indefinitely

My hands are busy
Giving
Could I receive?

My heart is busy
Beating
Do you hear the beat?

Wishes. So many.
Can I count the stars?
Faith.
Like a string hanging
Like a miracle daunting
yet the string will hold

It never breaks,
the living string
like a hanging breath

Zoe.